Updated: Aug 26
Over the years I have learned to be careful with my prayers. Do not ask for patience, you get reasons to be patient. Once, I asked God for the peace that passes understanding. I am still paying for that one. You see, I have gotten to see a whole lot of things past my understanding. I am still working on the finding peace part on that. This year, I decided to not call my latest desire a prayer but instead a New Year's resolution. Turns out, God really doesn't care what you call your prayers. So, I have been noticing all kinds of things that I normally freak out about first and then deal with the same exact way I would need to deal with the situation without the freak out.
That brings me to the topic of this blog. Skipping the freak out when time, people, places, things and ideas do not go as planned, or as I believe they should go. Here is what I have noticed. When things go wrong as they sometimes will (Quote from Don't Quit by John Greenleaf Whittier a quick note of thanks to my 7th grade English teacher Mr. Nelson for making us memorize it) it usually turns out to be ok, sometimes, it turns out better then if the thing had went perfectly the way I thought it ought to.
Here is an example of this in my life. In 2015, I was to get weight loss surgery, the gastric sleeve, shortly before Thanksgiving. Turns out, in the middle of October, I got pneumonia and ended up having to push my surgery back until just a few days before the end of the year. It turned out for the best, I was able to work 5 extra weeks and even though my clients new I was not returning to my old job, they tipped me extremely well for Christmas. I was able to pay 3 months of bills with that money so that I could take my time healing and looking for a different job.
The situation I am avoiding the freak out for regarding this article (because there are so many others, family, driving, etc.), Is not opening "on time". The truth is, I am not upset at all. There is still this feeling that I should be because things are not going according to plan. Honestly though, August is my least favorite month of the year, it just seems like everything goes wrong in August. I really didn't want to open in August but told myself everything would work out fine. I think it is. I very rarely take a break to catch my breath and get all the extras done, now I have that time. I am also excited to have a few weekends where I can go where I want and sleep in. It's gonna be amazing. I will still open, it will still be awesome. Best of all, I will most likely have a lot more stuff ready and be less frazzled.
I have always been taken care of, by the universe, God, and the beautiful people in my life. Up until this point, I have made it through, under, over or around every obstacle that I have come across in this life. I can no longer make excuses for my freak outs. I can not freak out and KNOW that I am being taken care of. I'm thinking maybe I can find that peace that passes understanding just a bit easier if I can learn to skip the catastrophic thoughts and actions.
I apologize for the inconvenience of the delay. Life happens and I am so glad that it does. Without all the side trips, the chutes and ladders as I like to call them, I would not have had some of the most amazing experiences of my life or met the wonderful people I have. I am looking forward to opening and seeing all the people I am missing. Until then, I will diligently do my work while also being lazy at times. See you in September, maybe even a little before.